I may be good enough for you,
But I'm not good enough for myself.
♥
I want to be perfect.
I know it's shallow
I know it's stupid
but I would do anything to have that perfect figure,
that flawless skin,
that long flowing hair.
Judge me all you want,
but I don't really care.
There's always be someone
Better than me
I know that
But I wish that I could see
I don't need to be perfect.
I don't need to be flawless
I can be happy
Without that nonsense.
♥
Don't tell me I'm cute.
I don't want to be cute.
I want to be beautiful.
I want to be stunning
I want to be told that
My time is coming.
♥
I'm a shit friend, first of all. just to clear that up with everyone.
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Now. More stuff has happened since we last spoke, people. And my life is getting more complicated. It can be good or bad, which ever way you wanna look at it. So...Now there's other guys. If you've been reading my blog along time, you'll probably know I'm not that popular with guys. Infact, 2 months ago, I couldn't name a single soul that liked me. But now...There is guys. Guys who like me. But, I know it's not a good thing. But the selfish side of my brain is having a self esteem boost. A little bit. I still don't love myself or any shit like that, but I don't annoy myself as much anymore, atleast.
Okaaayyy...
#ALEX
So, Alex still likes me. He confessed that I was his first crush. Ever. And that's weird to me, but okaay...
He told me he liked me since year 7. Aw, Why couldn't I just freakin like him back?! Gah. Life is so unfair!
#SAM
Well....read the last post. Sam is Alex's best friend. I used to fancy him in year 7. He's gorgeous. And sweet.
And...He told Jenny he liked me, IN SECRET. Jenny told Willow, IN SECRET. Who told me...Which totally kindof ruined the whole don't tell anna thing...but yanoe. But omg! He's still with this Abi BITCH. And...Jenny got all weird about me hanging out with me, she got angry and started bitching about me to alex, saying that she was angry cuz I spent time with Sam even though she was the one who introduced us. And now...I'm pretty sure she likes him. :/
#JACK
Um. He's hot. But I don't know him that well...
Then he told me he liked me. And I thought Willow was over him so I told her. Then I realised she's not...
Aw crap. I am a perfectly horrible friend. :/ xxxx
Any way, love you guys! :) <33
Omg, I havn't talked with you in ages! And by you I mean piczo generally.
I have been busy with exams, and well, life. Bare stuff has happened since then.
Well. Things with Ben, are, well...He really annoys me sometimes. I'm starting to see how cocky he is sometimes, and sometimes he says hi to me and I just don't want to speak. But I can't deny that when I see him my heart leaps. And its stupid, because nothings ever going to happen with us. I know that. He knows that. And it kills me, but it's true. It's stupid hoping, a guy like him will never like a girl like me. And, i would be lying if I said I didn't mind. I can't say I'm over him, but I can tell you that sometimes, I don't remember if he was in that day, which is new. And I don't feel totally gutted when i do realise. It's just a little let down, and an 'oh'. And, I don't knoww...I guess I don't need him as much as I used to. But, I still like him. And I'm definitely not totally over him...
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And then, theres Dom. He BMX's alot...And he's freaking hilarious. He's quite hot, and I love his chinos...I've never really noticed him before, but I think I have a thing for him,...not a big thing, yet...We talk more now. And he's smart and he's taking ART. Like me...:) He plays CoD, and when I saw him at the skating park the other day, and he waved and smiled. And I was grinnning...He will be there again tomorrow *sigh*
And then there's alex. He asked me out in year8 and I said no, i didn't really know him then...He went out with Sophie and a beautiful girl called Tessa. Then last weekend Sophie told me she still liked him. And I told her to get with him. And then alex told me he liked me. Alot. And...it absolutely sucks. I don't know why I don't like alex like that, he's a great mate. And we're quite close now. I hugged him the other day, and wished I felt something for him like he did for me. He told me how beautiful I was, and now I'm constantly wondering what's wrong with me. I fell for the douchebag. And missed out on the amazing one. Because I'm too stupid to fancy someone who actually likes me back.
My friends think we would be cute together. But I can't really see it if I'm being honest with you guys.
It would all be simple, but instead I'm making things difficult. But wouldn't it be bad to use him as a rebound of adam and ben? I know if I went out with him, I wouldn't get over the guys. And I don't wanna be that girl who takes their boyfriend for granted. Ever. I'm not gonna be that bitch.
His best friend understands. Sam. He's amazing. Hot, funny, sweet. But there's nothing between us. we're both falling for douches. He loves this girl...Abi. But she's a bitch. She takes him for granted, she hurts his feelings, she makes him feel like shit, and messes him about. She goes after his friends and blames him for everything. And he deserves so much better, but the worst part is, he thinks he's the one who's done everything wrong. And he can't see how horrible she is, because he's falling for her. :'(
So...yeah. <3
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I'll still post here, of course :P
Whitney.
Another legend
Gone
R.I.P
So, how is everyone?
Sorry I haven't posted in a while.
I've never really liked valentines day to be honest.
I find it quite pointless (mostly cuz I never seem to be with anyone when the day comes around) :L
But, seriously, I think, you should appreciate your loved ones everyday instead of having one singular day to worship them.
That makes sense, right?
I'm a terminal singleton, so I don't really look forward to the date, understandably.
But I just don't get why people make such a big deal about it, to be honest.
And the cost, aw crap. That must cost so much for so many people today.
So, I'm glad I don't have to worry about that! xD
So, while Lois is probably with her guy today...
I am sat at home, combining three crappy Video Games - Lana Del Rey piano sheet music versions, into one that hopefully sounds better,
listening to Maroon 5, and eating digestives dipped in custard. :D
Because I'm that sad bitch who does that sort of stuff. ;)
So...Let me catch you up!
#BEN
He wasn't in the last day....and things have been how they always are..
Bitter Sweet
#ADAM.
So...his friend invited me to an Xbox live party last week. Just to try and make things awkward. Oh hahaha, alex. Hilarious. I was curious so I joined. And Adam and this guy whos really close with Adam called Jack, was there too. Adam was like, "Heeyy!"
And I was likeeee....:DD
I spent two hours with them. but alot of the time it was us ganging up on Jack. They had some argument, and i sided with adam, so jack said,
"Anna. Your only saying that cuz he's your ex."
And I was like, "No. I'm siding with him cuz he's right."
And Adam was like, "YEAA JACK! Anna sides with me cuz your WRONG!"
And so it went on. And every once and a while he'd say something and I'd just think,
God. That was such an Adam thing to say." :)
He was so nice that night. :))
I went offline, and before i did, he said,
"Goodnight anna."
And I was, like, on top of the world.
I'm still absolutely BUZZZING! :)
#OTHERGUYS.
Don't think I like either Will's yaayy! :)
And me and matt are sort of friends ?
Confused? yeah, so am i. He spent all of art talking with me, and I helped him with his drawing. He was sat so weirdly close to me, I was likeee "?"
Hahhaaa...anyway. He's funny :)
And...I hope you all had a better valentines than me! :DD
Lovee Annaaa xxx
But,
I bet there's someone else.
Right?
,
Twilightaabbz
I\'m Anna. I\'m insecure. And I\'m crazy. And I\'ve got my weaknesses, my fears, my problems. But doesn\'t everyone? And I have my imperfections, my insecurities. But when I find that one boy who can love me in spite of all my quirks, that\'s when I\'ll be happy.
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