I say,

But in my head I add on,

"It's about you."

♥

I am so sorry I've not been on in a while...

Nothing's really changed. 

I miss Willow alot, it's weird at school...it feels like she should be there. But, I still see her on weekends and stuff so it's not really like she left properly. When she moves to Spain, it will feel like she's properly left though. Not looking forward to that at all :/ 

It's not like I don't have other close friends, but no ones gonna be her are they?

And she's probably reading this, so I'd just like to say, 

N'aww he's so freaking cute. I don't know why, something about him...

He hugged me the other day, and I was like, melting. Hahhaaa...

I don't mind being his friend. It's nice, there's perks, and I can't really do that much about it. I really have no choice in the matter. Some of the stuff he says to me, it makes me smile. Well, most things do cuz I totally LLLURRRVVVEEE him...

I guess if your read my posts, you know I totally hate being single. But in a way, I really love it. Flirt with any guy, hold hands with any guy...you can do anything you want. It's liberating, in a sense. I really love it. 

I can flirt with who ever I want, even if it's unintentionally, which it usually is. Ahh, but talking to Will (the one in my year)....O_o. He is HAAWWWTT! I talked to him about Assasins Creed....

He's really sweet. He's a little shy sometimes, but mainly, quite a chatty guy. He's tall and athletic and hot dayumm he is hot...if i didn't mention that before ;) 

He just dumped his long term girlfriend...dunno why, he's kind of private about stuff like that. It's cute.

Anyway, I spent a whole lesson just talking to him and Sam C and helping him with maths sums.

He's funny too, but I don't wanna start liking him...

We don't need ANOTHER guy in the mix...and it's inevitable that Kate and him will get back together. And he's WAY out of my league...I know. Downer...:L

Apparently I flirt with him according to Sukie ? :S

Ah well. Who cares. :L

He's kinda has the same opinions on stuff as me, he's easy to talk to. 

But when I looked at Ben...he just looked irratated. Probs just cuz I wasn't paying him a 100% attention cuz I was talkin to other guys. I know, stupid right ?

Sam C's sorta hot too. And he's single...

He's nice too, and funny. We were sat there, and he goes, 

"Annaa...."

"Yeah sam?"
"I need new undies." 

At this point i started laughing..."Um. Why?"

"Seriously, it's not even funny...I'm quite literally falling out of them." 

xD N'aww...what a total babe...

Ahhaa, and then we were tallking with Ben another day, and Ben goes, "I'm a kinesthetic learner." 

And I was like, "Whaaa ?"

"It means you like feeling stuff." Ben waggled his eyebrows at me. 

"Like, ya know, feely..." And then Sam winks and started feeling up my thigh xD

But yeaah...

And then my fake boyfriend is Sam S. Who is amazing may I just add! :) 

I see him, and he always hugs me and calls me gorgeous. And then I go, 

"So how are you?" 

And he goes, "Better now I've seen you, beautiful." 

N'aww, he always puts a smile on my face ;) 

I really wanna know, out of curiousity, who he likes. 

But everytime I ask he just says me. And I'm like, "SAM! Be Freaking SERIOUS!" 

Oh. And, Matt is so sweet! :) 

He's in lower sets for stuff, but he's in a couple of my classes, and he likes watching me draw. And he hugs me, and it's kinda weird cuz i don't even really know him ?

....:S 

But, he's so funny :) 

Rightio...

Well, Ben's still really funny...

And everyone's pretty much the same....

LOVE THEM ALL! ESPECIALLY BEN! 

And if he wasn't with that Charlotte girl I would get with himm ;) 

And Will's beautiful! He's still with this Jess girl. I used to think they were cute together, but now I feel kinda bad for him. He's out of her league by a smidge, but she always seems fed up with him and angry.  And it was so horrible, Will and her were arguing. Then he leaned in to hug her saying, "Aw, I'm sorry..." And then she like pulls back and snapped at him and was like, "NO WILL!" :'( I feel really bad for him. The way he speaks of her is so cute, but it seems like, yeah, she likes him but not as much as he likes her. :(( 

I don't want to say anythin to Will though, I hate it when he's sad. :/

But, ugh, he grinned at me in the hallway, after his girl had walked off. And my heart did that jumpy thing, and I'm scared I like him...

Which is a VERY bad thing, he'd pick up on it WELL quick. :S 

Lovee Annnaaa.... xxx

Love you all!